Ugh, the holidays

I love Christmas! I love the joy in the atmosphere. I love the excited faces of my children on Christmas morning. I love the lights and all the decorations. What I don't like is being alone. To me, Christmas is more romantic then Valentine's Day. Having my kids to spend it with is great. And putting toys together with my dad is something I will always treasure. But there's just something about not having that special someone to curl up with during this time of year. And I'm not just meaning on New Year's Eve, tho that is always tough too (the last 2 years I think I was in bed by 10 tho!). I'm talking about Christmas itself and all the festivities leading up to it. You know, all the parties, the events, the shopping.......ugh. Maybe next year will be different.