I'm so tired......

I'm so tired of pretending that everything is just fine, and then crying myself to sleep at night. I'm so tired of seeing all sorts of happy people in love and feeling like I'll never get the chance. I'm so tired of hearing people tell me to be patient and it'll happen when I least expect it and there's someone out there for me. I'm so tired of trying to be strong when all I want to do is crawl under a rock and cry. I'm so tired of feeling like a failure because I've failed at marriage (I had to do something to make him want out, right?) and at so many relationships (what's wrong with me?). I'm so tired of getting the "pitty" looks because I'm a single mom. I'm so tired of dreaming of finding love but truly feeling like it will never happen. I'm so tired of being alone during the holidays........